THE FINAL ONE

Well everyone that has seen all of these you should know that they take on a life on their own and something always happens different. Well what i have to say is that this is one thing that i did not see coming. This 7 months has been a long one and once your living in the doors you really don't see how long it really is but hey here is something that does happen...... Reality and for most it may not seam real but it does happen it does not last forever.

To go and get things started ummmmmmm lets start with Tom. Things are great and never better. Time here with Tom has made us really good and has an imprint on our lives. Today is the start to an end if you get that. And more or less other than starting our lifes together that is all that i will say because for the first time this is something i can keep for myself, kisses Tom.

and then to go on a bit with life around with things around the house. Well more or less we still have a Squatter well never mind i guess that he is in the house i guess and moves in tomorrow. Sorry i will say right now that it's not that i don't like the kid but he already tried to hit on me once at AE before i even knew him. Then comes in the house and lays on my bed and welcomes himself for an extended time unwanted.... and then made a small unknowing pass at my boyfriend sorry if i seam a bit stand off-ish then put yourself in my shoes k thank you.

Now with Zac.... boy i love you and thank you so much for everthing that you have given me and this has ment a lot to me. I've made a lot of really good friends and long lasting and i've also met a really great guy and got to learn a lot about through this and i thank you very much. I know that in our past there has been really good times and sometimes where i was not so great. But know that i still love you and its been really great.

Jon to let you know i love you and this will not be the end and your ass better call me that is all that i need to say. I know that your really busy and that somtimes we won't get to do the things that we want to do. But hey sometimes that is life and don't let that be the downfall to a great friendship. You have ment alot to me and have been one of the best firends that i've met in orlando.... thank you...

Nic you'll always have a friend in me and know that please take that for what it is becauase sometimes you don't always get that and know that is genuine and i think that is about all that i can say.

To fallen boys in my time lets see if i can count...... Nick, Robb, Mike, Chad, David that i can remember and wow let me just say wow. That is a lot of people that did not make it ummm more or less yea have fun and have a good life.

Well life is life and it goes on and i'm really not sure what more to say other than have a good one and if you want to know more wait and see and ask when you see me again like a normal person lol kisses have a good day and have a nice life talk to you all later.

Kisses

Love

Clay

aka

just Clay

Holly AE'ed out lol "not"

Well everyone it has been one more week here in the house of cbl and yes time actually still goes fast and there is not a lot that you can do about it right, just get on and ride so to speak. One thing that i have to say is that I'm very happy with Tom and it is hard to belive that we have been together for 4 months and were still going strong. I do think that at times this environment can be a bit hard and if you can withstand it and talk it out then it will all be okay. And something that i want to put here right now is this lol

ALL HAIL OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FAT ONE lol sorry i had to put this this is tigger aka tig tig Toms cat he is just the cutest thing and when i say that he has adopted me he truly has see that is my leg and he does not leave that side lol EVER.

But now on to things that are going on in the house, it seams as Seth has gotten back to days of old and is having an even better time now that he is 21 and can drink and not get in trouble if is out at a bar, and seams to go out a lot with Jon. We hear that there was drama at a Pleasure Island night. Apparently Chase confessed his love to Jonathon in the parking lot at the end of the night and they all wanted to go back in for more drinks but Chaz didn't want to. However, they ended up seperating from him and left him behind so he had to walk ALL the way home since he didn't have a cell phone to call anyone. Let me first tell you.....that is NORMALLY a 30 minute drive from the CBL house....so you can imagine how long that walk was!!! So I feel for that. Apparently then Chase was told to leave the house after confessing his love, then the CBL house was considering getting him psychiatric help as I hear. Well, all I have to say is..."Polish a turd...it's still a turd!"

So then there is Peter leaving. Well, I wasn't totally sure but apparently he never signed his contract pending Mavericks visit cause they weren't sure which direction he was going to be taking.....clearly he decided!! I hope everything works out for them, Mav seems like a great guy. I didn't get all that much time to spend with him, but he seems real.

Nic....love the boy. We hung out playing darts a few times this week. He is STILL beating me, but mark my words...I will get him! He is very good. I really do wish him the best in finding a job. I hope he knows that he has an open invite to escape at Tom and I's place if he ever needs to, cause I know how it is when you get caught up in the CBL bubble and have no outlets. Luckily I have had AE to get away and Tom's place.

Zac and Jon are so busy little bees, it's hard to follow them what with the beer tap, new farm and everything else. But all is good.

So Wednesday Tom and I went for a day of beauty. We both got our hair cut and next time we will go will be right before the cruise. My hair will be long enough then to get highlights, I can't wait to get them again!! So after that we headed out to Universal to ride the new "Simpson's" ride. It was really COOL!!! It is a virtual ride that you are on a roller coaster as Krusty'sideshow Bob is destroying it. You end up all over the place and it is like 4D too. So if you ever get to Universal, you have to check it out. But I am not gonna tell you anymore, cause that would ruin it for ya!

The biggest thing that happened to me this week is that I WORKED at AE A LOT!! I ain't complaining, cause I could REALLY use the extra cash! Going on this trip, I really want to be able to help pay for things for Tom and I, it would really make me happy to be able to do that. I want to be able to pay for the Extra things on the ship since he paid for the cruise itself. So whoever is able to help with donations, it would mean a lot to me. This cruise is going to be like a celebration of the new start to our relationship, and I think you all understand what I mean by that.

So boys, there is only one more entry that I will be doing after this. I hope you all have truly enjoyed getting to know about my life and experience it with me. I have poured my heart into these diaries and have considered turning them into a novel and seeing if it can make it to hardback, lol!! But seriously, I have enjoyed taking the time to tell you about what I have been doing and hope that you have enjoyed the reading and getting to know me along the way!! Stay tuned this week, Who knows what's going to happen!!!

Love

Clay

aka

Puppy